How to Keep Faith in God When Mother Got Terminal Lung Cancer(Part 2)
I Saw God’s Miraculous Protection for My Mother in Chemotherapy Treatment
Then, my mother had chemotherapy in the hospital. With her first course of chemo over, she began to lose hair. At that time, I thought of the doctor’s words: “The chemo has a big side-effect. After the first course, the patient will lose hair, and gradually become bald.” My mother still doesn’t know she is undergoing chemo for cancer. When all her hair falls out, she will know everything. Then can she bear this blow? If she couldn’t accept the fact, she may lose faith, and have bad moods, which will worsen her illness. Then what should I do? Living in worry and with depression, I had no choice but to bring this difficulty before God to pray, “God, I have seen that under Your guidance, my mother is quite faithful, although I am still afraid that once she knows that she has an incurable disease, she may not bear it, becoming negative and weak. O God! I know everything is under Your sovereignty. I am willing to entrust this matter to You. I believe Your arrangement is best. No matter what the result is, I am willing to obey Your arrangement.” After the prayer, my heart calmed down a lot.
Afterward, I saw God’s words say, “What does faith refer to? Faith is the genuine belief and the sincere heart that humans should possess when they cannot see or touch something, when God’s work is not in line with human notions, when it is beyond human reach. This is the faith that I speak of.” That’s right! How can I have such little faith? Last time, didn’t I see God’s authority and might when I worried about my mother? Now, why do I have no faith again? If I have no real cooperation, how can I experience God’s work and see His authority? God’s words gave me confidence to cooperate with Him. Whether my mother would know about her sickness was in God’s hands. I could only look upon and rely on God, and submit to His guidance to march forward.
Then it was time to have the second course of chemo. At that time, I was still a little worried, but I knew I should trust and rely on God in the midst of practical difficulties, and experience His work by His words. During that period, my mother and I seized every available opportunity to read God’s words, listen to sermons, and learn to sing hymns to worship God at home. Moved by God’s words, we both felt closer to God and had a truer and more real faith in God. My mother always said to me in a moving voice, “We started believing in God too late. In the past, I didn’t know about God’s existence and lived without any hope. I even wanted to die when encountering some great setbacks and difficulties. If it had not been for worrying about you guys, I would have died many times. If I had had this sickness then, I might have already committed suicide. Now, led by God’s words to live before Him, I feel so happy. With confidence and strength given by God, it’s not difficult to overcome the suffering of the disease. If only I could live for a long time, even if I am used in service!” After six months, I saw God’s wondrous care and protection: Other people’s hair fell out totally after the first course of chemo, while after three courses, my mother’s hair not only didn’t fall out, but grew out evenly. At this time, I truly experienced the authority and power of God’s word, and saw God’s faithfulness. As long as we truly look upon and rely on Him, He will open up a way out for us and solve our difficulties.
I Saw God’s Protection for My Mother Under Diathermy Treatment
But who would have thought that one wave would have passed before another one came! The lump in my mother’s neck had already disappeared after her third round of chemo, but not long after, the lump appeared again. This time, the doctor advised my mother diathermy treatment, a course of which took one month, and my mother accepted it. About half a month passed when my mother noticed that her throat was beginning to hurt and that she couldn’t swallow a slightly thick rice porridge. Nevertheless, she neither misunderstood nor complained about God. One time, I accompanied her to diathermy treatment. There we came across a cancer patient who had nearly lost his voice due to the diathermy treatment on his neck. I heard him say to his wife in a croaky voice, “The treatment afflicts me very much. I have such a sore throat that I can’t eat anything now. It is better to die than to suffer such great pain. It will be the last time I do this.” After he finished his words, I saw another patient who still didn’t want to have diathermy treatment even though his daughter begged him continually. Finally, having no way, his daughter asked a nurse for help. However, he persisted in wanting to leave the hospital. Seeing the patients very miserable, I couldn’t help but be concerned about my mother. So I asked her, “Mom, do you have a bad sore throat like that?” My mother said, “My throat also aches, but is not so bad. I bring the sickness before God and entrust it to Him in my prayers every day, and ask Him to lead me to live by His words. Just like God says, ‘To dwell in sickness is to be sick, but to dwell in the spirit is to be well.’ With the guidance of God’s words, I pay no attention to the disease, and I am not constrained by it, so I don’t feel much pain.” Hearing her words, I couldn’t help but thank God. I truly saw that as long as we truly relied on and looked upon God, we could experience the true meaning of His words, “You must have faith that everything is in God’s hands, and that humans are merely coordinating with Him. If you are sincere, God will see it and He will open up all paths for you, making difficulties no longer difficult. You must be confident in this.” Willing to submit to God’s sovereignty and arrangement, my mother went to every diathermy treatment for a whole month. The part of her neck being heated seemed to be burned, and the skin there fell down piece by piece, but she never said that her throat hurt severely, which allowed me to truly see God’s authority and wondrous deeds. After the diathermy treatment, the doctor asked my mother to have chemo, but she insisted on not doing it, no matter how my brother tried to persuade her. Through constantly reading God’s words and praying to God during the refinement of illness over these few months, she had more and more faith in God, and her knowledge of God increased accordingly. She knew that her life and death were all in God’s hand. She was also willing to entrust her disease to God’s hand, and be at the mercy of God.
The Cancer Healed, We Gave Thanks for God’s Grace
What was wonderful was that one and a half years ago, my mother was declared to only live for a further three or four months, while now she is still in good health. I deeply experience the authority and power of God’s word. God’s word says, “If you have but one breath, God will not let you die.” “It is not humanity that holds the power of life and death, not some being in the natural world, but the Creator, whose authority is unique. Mankind’s life and death are not the product of some law of the natural world, but a consequence of the sovereignty of the Creator’s authority.” My mother had cancer, and the doctor declared the time of her death, but when we prayed to God and constantly relied on God in illness, we had practically experienced His work, seen His marvelous deeds, and gained some knowledge of His authority through the environment set by Him. Now we have more faith in God, and have experienced that His unique, supreme authority, is exceeded by no force. God indeed controls man’s life and death.
At that time, we didn’t tell my mother her real condition. Afterward however, my mother told me that she had knew it when she saw those cancer patients, and the neighbors always said to her that she could only live for several months. Although she had weaknesses, under the guidance of God’s words, she wasn’t bound by death and her neighbors’ words. Instead, she struggled with cancer resiliently. Besides, my mother had asthma before and she liked smoking; although we siblings all advised her not to smoke, she said, “I’ve smoked for so many years, I cannot stop now.” But after experiencing this disease, she quit it, and her asthma is a lot better, which moves me most. In addition, my sisters and brother all opposed our belief in God before, while they support us now after seeing God’s wondrous protection from the cure of my mother’s cancer. Our relatives and neighbors all said, “It is a miracle that you’re healed! It is true God that you believe in!”
On the surface, it seemed like a bad thing, but actually it was a good thing. Through it I truly saw God’s deeds, and gained some practical experience of the power and authority of God’s words. Had it not been for the guidance of God’s words, how could my mother and I have felt released in the face of death and had such a way in desperation? These are outcomes we were led to reach by God’s words. I even more saw that, had it been not for God setting this environment to reveal my intentions of gaining blessings and bargaining with God, I wouldn’t have realized my wrong view of belief in God, and would have been believing in God amid vagueness all the time. If so, I couldn’t truly know God in the very end. Thank God for changing and purifying me through the real environments, motivating me to pursue to become a person who truly obeys God and lives in God’s light. All the glory be to God! Amen!
Source from: Find the shepherd
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